"You will not wake up"…

There was such a ferocity in what I am calling my lucid Nightmare…not honestly sure if that is even a thing…

All four of us had been kidnapped…more like snatched violently from our safe place. The screams were the worst, and the men who tried to help were shot. There was a long period of being out cold, as myself and my twin soul were hit upon the head…To no end would our captors cease their actions. Two of us had been made to service others sexually, and my twin soul was beaten like the other two….Their leader, a masked male figure in black and white, made certain to harm me in the worst ways imaginable…I didn’t think being stabbed so many times could hurt so terribly in a dream. Not like that. It was like a scorching hellfire in my bones with each connected hit….

I was, for that period in time, helpless. My body weighed down on me…wouldn’t let me move. The one time I did try to escape, I felt as if I were then running to get out of the nightmare and wake up…yet I was made to suffer until my attacker told me I could wake up…It felt like someone was seriously fucking with my head…that kind of pain only spurs from hatred and greed….what I was made to feel had a purpose…but it wasn’t the universe telling me…

Whoever it was, caused some mental damage, as it has made me certain that this will happen again tonight.

They told me I needed to wake up…

For the last two nights, I’ve had this intense dream that has left me excited and confused upon waking. The first night, I didn’t remember faces or even events that took place. Last night, it took hold of me. I was so mesmerized by the events unfolding, that in lieu of it all, I found I did not want to wake up. In fact, I didn’t even think of it until I was grasped at the shoulders by a male presence. He had such care in those eyes…passion. Hurt, even. As if he did not want me to wake up…but knew eventually I had to. So, he did what he felt best and said “You need to wake up now. Don’t let yourself be lost in all of this. Don’t let this take you from what must be done as you walk in your world of waking. See me when you are ready…see me when you are given your sign. I will be here…we all will.” I begged to not be woken up…it was 7am when I opened my eyes. Not sure what’s going, but I’m ready for the ride….Are you?

"There were four of us. All four were in agreement from the beginning to remain Twin Souls. We agreed to go through metaphysical changes and experiences with one another. In the beginning, there were four. Now there are three, as one half of a whole lost his way….What are the chances he’ll come back to his better half?"